I Don’t Have a Yoga Body

Have you said this to yourself? Has your friend invited you to a yoga class but you have resisted because of your body image? Do you think you “can’t do” yoga because you aren’t thin or flexible? That others in the class won’t welcome you or will make fun of you? I too used to think I couldn’t do yoga because I wasn’t flexible enough. For the longest time I was drawn to yoga, but I resisted. I still don't really know what the call was, but it was there. Yes, I'm still a work in progress. Yoga is a practice, and just because I now teach yoga doesn't mean I am perfect. I still have my shadow side that I work with.

The images I had always seen of yoga were of skinny young women/girls with their legs behind their heads or standing on their heads. I knew that my body could not do much of the things you see in mainstream media and lately on social media. I thought I had to look or be able to move a certain way to "do" yoga. I couldn't have been more wrong.

Yoga meets you where you are today, not where you think you should be or want to be.

Me at my highest weight February 2014

In February 2014 I was at my highest weight. The picture to the left was taken February 3rd, 2014. It may look as if I weighed way more than I actually did. I was sandwiched between two people in the back seat of a car, in upstate NY, bundled against sub-zero temps. The picture is horrible, but it was actually a very happy day for me.

A few weeks later, on March 8, 2014 at the age of 50, I walked kicking and screaming through the doors of Weight Watchers, determined to lose weight, but more importantly keep my health. Believe it or not this was not my first rodeo with Weight Watchers, in 1994 I lost 32 lbs. After a few years of maintaining that loss, those pounds found their way back and brought some friends along. My weight that March day was logged at 179.4 lbs. I set my "new" goal weight at 128 lbs. The highest "ideal" weight for my "want to be" height. Those of you who know me, know I can only claim to be 5' tall if I have heels on, and tell a tall tale, lol. However, I wanted to have a goal that would be not only be achievable but would be sustainable. If I lost past that and could sustain it great, but I wanted to set myself up for success, not failure right out of the gate.